So I am sitting in front of my computer getting a play list together so that I have something play while I try to fall asleep. Some of these songs that I chose to be on this list have some memories that I thought I would share.
1) Slide, Iris - Both by the Goo Goo Dolls
These two songs remind me about my older sister, when she was still living with my mom and myself. I remember loving these songs when I first heard them, but did not want to tell her I liked them because I felt that I would be considered gay/weak. These songs just make me wish I could go back in time to when my sister still lived here because I miss her being here. The other memory I have of the Iris song was when WWE wrestler Eddie Guerrero died from heart failure, the WWE released a video with this song in the background. Here is that video if anybody cares to watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lfX9_yowdwU
Hearing these songs bring out a lot of emotion in me because I just wish that I could go back in time to the first time that I heard these songs, just for a moment, so that I could savor the memories I had with my sister.
Life is a beautiful thing.
2) Blurry - Puddle of Mudd
When my little sister had her first back surgery she really liked this song. I remember walking into see her with all of the surgical tubes running in and out of her while this song was playing in the background. She is a very strong girl, and I wish that things could have worked out for her better, but she would probably disagree with me since she is so stubborn lol.
I have probably never said it to my sisters, and I probably never will, but I love them very much and wish that we could relive some of the memories we had when we were younger.
3) Meant to Live - Switchfoot
Back when I was still in middleschool, this song was played for me by Amanda Fiscus with her then bf Jarred Bunnelle sitting in the passenger seat. The two of them come to mind when I hear of this song. The three of us were once great friends, but something happened and changed that along the way. I care for them very much and wish that we could go back to the way that was when the three of us were sitting in that Explorer that afternoon.
4) Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
On the way to Walmart to meet my friend Ellie, this song came on in the car while I was shuffling my ipod. It was close to graduation and I am not sure why, but I started to cry. The lyrics to this song was so overpowering at that time and I couldn't help myself. To this day, I still don't know why I cried, maybe it was because I was about to see me and all of my friends go off to college knowing that Tim, andy, and ellie wouldn't attend class with me ever again or maybe it was because I was scared of what the future had in mind for me. I will never know.
5) Broken - Seether featuring Amy Lee
The only serious relationship I have ever been in was with a girl named Carrie Morse. She was a nice girl and I cared for her very much when we were in a relationship together back when I was a sophmore. I remember buying and burning the cd for her because she said how much she enjoyed this particular song. I think of Carrie when I hear this song, and I am glad that I experienced what I did with her. I hope that she is taking care of herself, and maybe we will run into each other some day down the road.
2/11/09
A Weird Dream I had
So I decided to change my colors up today because I thought the gray and white was dull. I did my best to change all of this to match the denver nuggets colors.
Anyways, I rarely remember dreams that I have after I wake up, and I thought that I should get this down before I forget it completely.
But if either of the girls I write about in this some how discover this blog and read my entry, this should not freak you out because I am not confessing my love to you or anything like that, it was just a crazy dream.
Last night I experienced dream that I was very interesting to me because it came out of nowhere. The two main people that were involved in my dream were girls that I went to high school with. Robyn briggs and Kelsie michelson were the two girls involved in my dream, and I can not think of a reason why that is because I never really interacted with either of them for a long period of time. My only thoughts of them when we attended high school together was that I thought they were both funny and very attractive. The first part of my dream had myself running into Robyn briggs at a grocery store. We talked for a little bit, but I can't remember what about other than I was a jerk to her. The other part that I can remember about my dream involving Robyn was that we were outside watching a soccer game and I was very apologetic for what happened in the store. She didn't think I was acting like a jerk and then I tried to hold her hand, but she moved away not realizing what I was trying to do. Something woke me up after that ending that dream. The other part that had Kelsie in it took place on a busy street with tons of people and traffic going by. While this was going on, Kelsie and I were sitting on a couple of swings that were hooked up to a large building. I am not sure how many stories it was, but it was large, and we just talked while swinging. Now I participated in being a counselor for outdoor lab with a bunch of kids and kelsie did as well, so this next part is the only reason I can think of that makes sense to me. While we were swinging, we saw Kelsie's little brother playing with a soccer ball and we talked about him, but I don't remember what about(I remember him from outdoor lab, that is probably why he was in my dream). After that, I began to swing higher and higher and kelsie warned me to not get too high. I responded by saying something along the lines of, if I fall off and get knocked out promise that you will give me mouth to mouth. Now that doesn't make sense to me now that I think of it, but after I said that, kelsie takes my hands off of the chain of the swing laughing to herself. I am not sure what I said after that, but she was jokingly trying to get me to fall because of what I said. The higher I got, the more it felt like I was losing control. When I tried to stop myself and slow down, I ended up losing complete control and ended up swinging into kelsie, but before I made contact with her, I woke up to my alarm. These dreams left me with a good feeling, and I am not sure why that is. Probably because my interaction with girls have been lacking.
I wish that I could have more dreams like this because of the feeling it left me this morning. I hardly ever have dreams, and when I do I usually forget them, so this was a nice change.
Anyways, I rarely remember dreams that I have after I wake up, and I thought that I should get this down before I forget it completely.
But if either of the girls I write about in this some how discover this blog and read my entry, this should not freak you out because I am not confessing my love to you or anything like that, it was just a crazy dream.
Last night I experienced dream that I was very interesting to me because it came out of nowhere. The two main people that were involved in my dream were girls that I went to high school with. Robyn briggs and Kelsie michelson were the two girls involved in my dream, and I can not think of a reason why that is because I never really interacted with either of them for a long period of time. My only thoughts of them when we attended high school together was that I thought they were both funny and very attractive. The first part of my dream had myself running into Robyn briggs at a grocery store. We talked for a little bit, but I can't remember what about other than I was a jerk to her. The other part that I can remember about my dream involving Robyn was that we were outside watching a soccer game and I was very apologetic for what happened in the store. She didn't think I was acting like a jerk and then I tried to hold her hand, but she moved away not realizing what I was trying to do. Something woke me up after that ending that dream. The other part that had Kelsie in it took place on a busy street with tons of people and traffic going by. While this was going on, Kelsie and I were sitting on a couple of swings that were hooked up to a large building. I am not sure how many stories it was, but it was large, and we just talked while swinging. Now I participated in being a counselor for outdoor lab with a bunch of kids and kelsie did as well, so this next part is the only reason I can think of that makes sense to me. While we were swinging, we saw Kelsie's little brother playing with a soccer ball and we talked about him, but I don't remember what about(I remember him from outdoor lab, that is probably why he was in my dream). After that, I began to swing higher and higher and kelsie warned me to not get too high. I responded by saying something along the lines of, if I fall off and get knocked out promise that you will give me mouth to mouth. Now that doesn't make sense to me now that I think of it, but after I said that, kelsie takes my hands off of the chain of the swing laughing to herself. I am not sure what I said after that, but she was jokingly trying to get me to fall because of what I said. The higher I got, the more it felt like I was losing control. When I tried to stop myself and slow down, I ended up losing complete control and ended up swinging into kelsie, but before I made contact with her, I woke up to my alarm. These dreams left me with a good feeling, and I am not sure why that is. Probably because my interaction with girls have been lacking.
I wish that I could have more dreams like this because of the feeling it left me this morning. I hardly ever have dreams, and when I do I usually forget them, so this was a nice change.
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